I am seriously back in "Gotta" mode.
Gotta kick this cigarette habit, gotta lose this weight, gotta get myself thinking straight so I can get back to work.
Hell, I even feel like I gotta do something with the crazy hair of mine. You might think that's silly and vain, but, trust me, I look like a hot Edward-Scissorhands-is-my-stylist mess. Really. It is that bad.
The exercising is going well. I'm a little frightened by how well. I keep thinking that I'm starting off so good that there's nowhere to go but down. (I am so cheerful these days!) Anyway, here are pics (aka: PROOF) of my stats from the past few days...
This (on the left) was actually NOT my best day. I have proof from my family that I did an hour once. Funny thing is, the calories for that hour were about the same as for the 45 minutes.
|Not so bad. Did it all to Chaka Khan & Etta James.|
|For some reason, THIS dang near killed me!|
I am missing some pics from my camera. Think I stored them to different places. But, anyway, you can see I am making an attempt at the exercise.
Dieting is extremely easy. I am a proud person, so I don't like to eat food that's not mine. Also, I've gotten so picky lately about what I like. Kind of back to the yogurt and cereal phase. I am listening to my doctor and trying to fit proteins in there.
The cigarettes? That's just insane. I'm not slipping up and smoking, but I am so cranky that no one wants to be around me...
Oh, and the hair situation? Not sure about that yet. I will either break down & relax it (and risk having to make an emergency trip to my friend Sharon to have her fix it) - OR... I will leave it natural and add some length with a weave. I'm not good at doing self-weaving, just so ya know.
As for getting primed back up for work, I tried going over one of the old Broker's Exams the other day. Totally depressing! Every answer, every concept was right there on the edge of my mind... I actually even forgot how to code garments. Like I didn't clear imports for fifteen freaking years!!!
The best I can do is stay hopeful and hope everything gets better. Something wonderful is going to come out of this nightmare, I just know it.
Here is hoping that you guys are all staying healthy or getting there.