You were so much a part of me that I felt abandoned when you left. You were so beautiful of a big sister that I knew I had to let you go.
While I am devastated by the loss of you (I cling to the word "annihilated"), I am also motivated to live a better life than I have been these past two years. I want to live life fuller and more content. I want to live it for myself and not for anyone else. I want to embrace better people and energy and let go of anything that is negative for me.
So, even though you are gone, you are still encouraging me.
Happy birthday, sister. I miss you so.