Time Feels So Weird Now

 I have spoken here before about my depression. It's been a while since I have had a bad "episode", but those damn blues are back.

What I've wondered for the past couple of weeks is what triggered my depression this time. My brother mentioned how the daylight savings affected a lot of people this year. I can't be sure if that's the problem, but I know that the time change was worse for me this time. Normally, I barely notice the change after the first day. This year, it took a week before I got back into rhythm with the time change. And what is the point of DST these days? Arizona and Hawaii do fine without it.

The other thing I've noticed is how weird time feels to me lately. As I have aged, like a lot of people, time seems to move faster for me, but these days, it's gotten bizarre. I had a weird thing happen. Late yesterday, I was making some medical appointments and noting them on my calendar. For one of the appointments, I was thinking of calling the doctor's office with a question, but it was after hours. This morning when I got up, I called the office only to get the "closed" message. That's when I realized this is Saturday. I don't remember Friday at all. Does that make sense?

I live on a schedule because it's how I keep sane. I clean on a schedule, I pay bills on a schedule, and I have a certain day that I do laundry, check my appointments calendar, etc. Because I tend to be foggy-brained half the time, doing things on a schedule helps keep my life on track. I don't understand how I skipped an entire day. Is that something caused by my depression? Or is the time thing the cause of my depression? I don't even know how to ask my doctor about this because it sounds so crazy.

Time has felt weird or "off", in my opinion, for a while. It's as if too much is happening too fast all the time. Lately, I don't even like to read the news because it's almost over-stimulating. 

I remember hearing something like what is shown in the following meme, and I've never forgotten the explanation:

Hmmm... I wonder what means when you feel like you're skipping whole days.

Is this strangeness affecting only me, or are others feeling this way? My brother, when I asked him, agreed with me but he might be just saying that, so I don't feel crazy. 

Anyway, I'm going to start asking people if they are noticing this weirdness.

Peace

--Free